Job search stressful

MORE unemployed youths are inclined to turn to crime in order to survive.
This is my sixth year in search of a job and I am going through so much right now.
I understand why many youths are turning to crime to survive. It’s not easy.
The sacrifices my parents made and the challenges I faced at school in the name of education means nothing in this country.
While my parents laboured into the night with a lamp to raise money in the village for my school fees, I gathered left over soap pieces in the ablution block and mold them together in my hand to have a bath.
My parents borrowed money from my relatives to pay for my fees and the expectations I see in my parents’ eyes have taken a toll on me.
I feel so terrible.
Without a form of income, I cannot marry my fiancé and raise a family.
With so much pain in my heart, I have freed her from the promises we made and the oath we took to remain faithful to each other till the time is right.
Though it was against her wishes, I forced her to move on with her life and find a man who has a future.
People might ask“why not work the land?”
But this is the stupidest question to ask someone if you don’t know their life.
I never make more than K500 a year from coffee.
To make things worse, the coffee berry borer has destroyed the crops.
I have dreams for my children to be properly fed and clothed.
I want them to get a better education and to live a better life.
Only money can make these happen
Without money, I can’t have children.
As a university graduate, finding a job is so difficult and painful unless if you probably know the right people.
In my desperation and depression, the only thought that strikes me is death.
I have nothing to live for in this life.
Death appears to be my best solution.
I feel so helpless.

K Tsiolkolvsky